first fight of the year

the first fight of the year. it sucks. and i'm sad.

so on saturday we went to la kueva after almost a month of not going to celebrate the birthday of el moreno. we were supposed to go to dinner at el morneo's house but we got caught up in a game of scrabble. we had so much fun. we had dinner with my parents instead. he fixed my bathroom... it was a start to a wonderful evening. then things got screwed up...

he hates going to la kueva... especially when he has a girlfriend. but we went cuz of his friend. we get there before everyone and say our hellos to the other regulars. i see el bartender and his crazy new hair style... i have my drinks. (wine of course) he has his. he mentions to el trompito that we've made 2 months.. and that i've bewitched him. we are playful and cuddly ... then i make the mistake of touching el bartender's hair. i made a very big mistake.

he was upset. he was livid actually. said that he didn't want any girl of his touching other guys. i didn't really see the big deal about it.. till he said.. what if i did the same thing?? he's right it would piss me off... so because of this he's having trust issues with me now. and i'm upset. because i'm falling hard for this boy. really hard. i dont want to lose him. he's a good guy. he really is.

so i guess this is what happens when u get into a realationship.. u give give what u can knowing it's a gamble. and it can all get fucked up for an innocent action. and innocent action that to someone else is anything but.

i'm sad. very very sad.